Requiem for a dream

Born and brought up with all essential luxuries. I never valued things very much and took them as less prior to my other priorities.It's an attitude I call it ,"LET GO" attitude.It simply means to forget your mistakes and move on without taking any lessons from it.In the meantime I lost many other valuable things ,I felt for them quite a times but they never were truly mine because I didn't earn them .so i just let it go .I just had them  anyway without any struggle and work.There are certain things which are way more costly than we expect them to be because we don't actually know it's worth or else we ignore their importance.Be it a birthday gift,a memento of appreciation or anything worth keeping it forever.They are are cared of a day and one the next day same story is followed  Once I have them for the next day they are in heaven .Being gifted IPad in class 8, for my insanity for music,  is one of my best memories but it took me a month in losing it.i really felt bad for it .I was gifted a costly watch , keeping in mind my sports activities and everything .when I had it I threw in everywhere at home in playground but when I actually needed it in exam .I was depended on my neighbour ,who found it disturbing to have been asked time every hour.I felt bad for these things but I seriously never took  lessons from them because stories of such incidents came following up with other things .Just a little careful approach would have never let them happen .At least few of them.There are certain things which you want to go back and change it from your past. Everytime we make a mistake .We back in memories ,rewind it , rectify your mistakes and watch it but when we open your eyes .We realise,it has happened and we can't so much now.Such an incident blew me apart .Preparing for medical in the main .I teach junior students for my own revision and in return I get paid back that helps me buy things which are unnecessary according to my mother but a must for me.After cutting all expenses and     saving for while all I had now we're RS 2000 .New currently printed RS 2000 ,new because I could smell it and they were totally mine.i could do whatever I want.I had planned algorithm to spend my money ,keeping everything according to plans RS 500 were kept for party with Aman Singh and watching  a movie probably  The gazi attack  and keeping the rest money to my new account which I had to open .I took my younger brother and we went to open an account .The very first bank we went was Axis Bank .They refused to open an account because 1) I didn't had a PAN card 2)RS 2000 .There policy opens with a customer operating above RS 10000 minimum.It felt like Zakir Khan's words BHAK GARIB .Felling poor ,option 2 and the only valid option SBI, adityapur..We asked a man ,how to open an account.He said ,do u have an PAN card and Adhaar card. I replied I don't have pan card.He went back into files ,kept doing is work .After 5 minutes ,I asked what to do ,with his eyes he meant to say ,"get lost bastards " , but he told ," bina pan nhi khulega .New policy .I came back home and Googled it was true.PAN card is compulsory for opening an account.I called few hyper active citizens in my call log to get information how to apply for pan card.i went to nearest place and applied for it.He told me it will take about 2 weeks to have your card.i then and there dropped the plan of opening an account because I can't wait that long.Finally I thought to buy books of medical exams .I was ready for class took  RS 2000 ,saw it and smell it.i don't have a purse . Actually I had it once being gifted by mother which I gifted to my other lazy and  copy- paste best friend Harsh .So I took the money and kept in right side of my pocket because I frequently use my left Pocket so it will be safe .Along with it also kept RS 30 for my auto fare in the same pocket (unluckily)I went for the class and in the middle I got a call from my friend Hemant who wanted my confirmation on his newly buyed a laptop at bistupur.so I went there to gave my confirmation and we went to class .After my class ,along with my  friend Siddhartha .I went to book shop .The shop -keeper put down his store stamp and packed it.i took my hands in pocket and I found that only RS 20 were I there .RS 2000 was missing.i just felt an electric shock over there .I went to the same street twice the confirm and in a possibility that I may find it back there .I went back to class as well but all were vain .I searched my bag ,my paint , everywhere.I didn't find it.I cursed Modi ,why the hell did he implemented new notes,if RS 1000 were not banned I would still have possibility of having at least half of my losing amount.for the very first time it felt bad and i was taken back from inside. Everytime I  tried to keep my focus away from it .I had my RS 2000 in front of me.I kept ,reversing my memories ,what if I took scooty for classes ,what if I would have ignored Hemant what if this what if that .What once was mine was now someone's  else .Now,the only hope that I have is that whoever have my RS 2000 may be needy and he may need them badly,that's what I can expect on a positive side .We can't turn back clocks or go back in time or freeze present , travel dimension.Not for now at least.what we can do is learn from the moment and move ahead .I am still hurt but I have a better lesson and a must lesson which I needed,these things will definitely help me grow and make me better person ."Money ain't that important ,the labour you do it  to have it in your pocket is more valuable.we must keep doing our work".