i like how it feels

                                                               I like how it feels

Just imagine, given among the characters you know on TV .what would you choose .off course one will choose himself to be hero. I have never found a single man saying I want to be GABBAR SINGH or JOKER OF BATMAN or MOGAMBO.Everybody wants to be hero .when kids offered the same the tell choota bheem or jerry in their choices .I have never heard a single kid saying I want to be kalia or some other evil. It’s like how we have been taught to grow up. We never accept odds.be it gay marriages, or men’s having women’s profession like hair stylist, makeup man but that’s not what my story is all about. It’s about a search that began from worst mythical villain but turned me to the best hero in life.

Suppose you are acting a play based on ramayan.what would you love to do.no guess every single choice I asked I found it to be LORD RAM, LAKSHMAN or HANUMAN …

The story is of the time when I was in class 9 and was very associated with my music teacher because I was good in acting and a bit in dance as well .Also I used to help her out. She too had private dance classes where she would teach. She was offered to play acts at a puja pandal at sonari on the eve of first day of durga puja accompanied by huge masses and guests. I got a call from her to meet her at her at dance classes in kalpanapuri.i rushed back to meet her and there she threw the head banger .she told me play the role of RAVANA in a play to be done at sonari .I was shocked. I thought for a while that really do I look so bad that she has offered me RAVANA.i was like really, mam has offered me ravana’s role  at least she must have given me hanuman. I at least deserved it.i thought to put it down and let’s not do it.Then I thought let’s give a try let it come what it comes to me.i felt that what my friends and family will think and how could I say to my friends . Hey bro, I am playing ravana at a fest. I was feeling pissed.Then I went to the institute which was full of all trained people who were mastered in their job. I was told my job and character .i kept doing it many times but couldn’t impress the people who were present there. I was also not doing with comfort zone because it was my first day .then mam told that tomorrow, I‘ll be judged on my performance and if I don’t do it accordingly I’ll be replaced. I felt insecurity .yes I really did. Once you have a thing and next moment you are told that the thing may not be yours then you’ll feel the same as I did. I was afraid that my role would be taken away. I came back from practice and was at home watching SWADES, a movie I love a lot .there I found a scene depicting Ramayana scene and I found the same song in the movie is the one I am acting on. I just downloaded the song and began practicing it.next day I gave my best short and was applauded .till then I was practicing alone after then I was told to come for group practice there I found that the girl playing sita is remarkable beautiful .again I felt that what role have I chosen actually I am given .At that moment I began hating ram, a junior kid playing the role of him gets sita so easily. But I was happy with the role I had at least it took a lot pain to get it .i was enjoying the moment .The place of HANUMAN was still empty so I suggested my friend ASHUTOSH’s name, actually he is mam’s son. She agreed but when he got to know this that I was the one to get him hanuman’ role .I was covered with slang's and he told me “aaj tune mere punch me aag lageyee hai Vishal, teri lanka toh main jalakar rahunga beta”.

It was ironical that mythological enemies are real life best friend’s .ravana and hanuman were best buddies real life. The final show was at sonari .i went to the stage and saw thousands of faces, I have seen a lot of this before but this was something different .it was something for real and many political guests which is common in durga puja. The best thing I found against all odds was costume that I was offered .i was given weapons and many accessories which were just so cool.Mukut was heavy but it was just awesome. The best of them was talwar .it was heavy,  attractive though blunt but I felt like putting it inside ram for stealing sita but I thought let’s become star then I’ll handle sita next. At the end I acted in dyeing that’s how end is devil dies and god wins but that was best October for me being ravana for a month and I like how it feels.

I learned that when you want to do something just do it with heart forget the odds. Just kill it and do it with ease. Set the pace and let it go like you have wanted to do.

Whatever part you are offered be it hero, villain never consider it beneath your dignity to accept it.as an artist your aim should be to make the most of our opportunity and squeeze the last drop of meaning out of your lines.

    “EVERY STRUGGLE IS A VICTORY AND SOME GOALS ARE SO WORTHY THAT IT’S GLORIOUS TO HAVE ACHIEVED THEM”.

And I know how it feels to have achieved then. I love being rVn.